Showing posts with label christ follower. Show all posts
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Wednesday, June 30, 2021

The Unseen Servants

 


“He must become greater and greater, and I must become less and less.”
‭‭John‬ ‭3:30‬ ‭NLT‬‬



It’s been on my heart for a little while to describe how I see the people behind the scenes. The person who does all those things we think just happens or maybe not even think twice about. In the hurried world we live in it is easy to miss them. Although the unseen are not unseen at all. There is a kingdom beyond this earth and our Heavenly Father Jesus sees it all. He sees everything. 

Have you seen them? 

Unseen servants are among us. 

Filled with grace and truth working, speaking, and losing themselves in the heart of Jesus. 

Their eyes see the needs among us. 

The gospel is planted with every act of love, kindness and service. Our eyes may miss it because they are not in need of any adulation. Our churches function by them. Doors are unlocked and locked daily. Lights are replaced because of them. Transportation is provided by them and a helping hand is always there. A welcoming spirit is in them. A friend is there for us. 


Have we seen them? 


Unseen servants are among us. We may miss them in our coming and goings.  Sometimes our inwardness can turn our focus on selfish desires rather than seeing what is good. 

It is the unseen servant that is working for the good of others and the glory of God, Jesus Christ. 


Have you see them? 


We will see them when we seek to be a servant of Jesus Christ.  


I hope this was encouraging and thought provoking for you today. May our hearts serve others like Jesus. 


Blessings 

Tracy 

Thursday, May 13, 2021

God Sanctifies Me As A Mom



“For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.”

‭‭John‬ ‭3:16-17‬ ‭ESV‬‬



As I think on how Jesus has shown me how He saves. Saves us as parents from the emotional roller coaster and struggles of parenting our kids. Saves our kids from the inner struggles they deal with and bad decisions. God sent Jesus for us.  Here are two mothers who had to let go and let God. 

Moses’ mother had to give her son up to save him from being killed. God took care of him. 


Hannah had to give Samuel back to the Lord. God took care of him. 

Both of these mothers loved their kids but were faced with letting go of them. Giving them to the Lord for protection, saving, and ultimately using them for the kingdom. 


I saw this as a hard ask of me when my kids started growing up. I had always controlled everything from what the wore to what they eat. I saw the instruction and discipline I taught them as good but I couldn’t control their every decision forever. I know for me letting go wasn’t easy. If you know me I like control and while your kids are young you can hang onto their shirt tails but not so much as they grow older. Ha! I learned along time ago with my strong willed child and even with my easy going child I had to let them go into the hands of Jesus for guidance and protection. I couldn’t save them. I couldn’t continue to make their decisions no matter the mistakes. God is ultimately in control and we only have these little people and teens for a little while.


Isn’t that just like God to show us as parents how He loves His children just the same. God sent His one and only son Jesus to save us. Jesus doesn’t make our decisions for us but guides us as we follow Him. We are used for His glory.  


My prayer is for the parent who is coming to grips with letting go of those babies graduating school this year. I know it is an emotional time but exciting time in life. 

My prayer is that we will be role models that our children will see Christ in us because they don’t stay little for long. 

Monday, May 3, 2021

Lessons In Serving My Local Church

  
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I had to keep the church nursery again this week. My heart was already weary from a busy week of work and taking care of my own kids. Now I was asked to do one more hour of service at church. Our church was small and the volunteers were even smaller in number. 


I can remember as a mom of littles being absolutely tired of chasing my kids at home much less taking them to church and do it in front of everyone. I saw it as one more place to find myself struggling to keep up. I was struggling to see the importance of serving in the midst of my own struggles at home. I didn’t think I had it me but I would go and you know what I leaned? 

God met me there and equipped me every time. It never failed that someone would always show up to help ease my weary heart and rally my own kids. I would then be encouraged to keep the nursery and later on teach for that one hour in our church. 

I eventually saw that time every week as holy ground that God used me to serve. I learned so many lessons for my own heart. I learned serving God isn’t easy but when I show up He always does too. 

Serving has shown me what the heart of Jesus looks like. Jesus was a servant and if I want to reflect my Savior then my heart had to learn how to reflect His. As I looked around at those serving my family they were showing me how to be selfless because they weren’t exempt from bad days and struggles either. They loved me and my family well. Kindness and grace filled their words. They reminded me that I was doing the best I could as a mom. Not to mention the countless prayer warriors God sent my way. So no mater the size of the church it needs more servants for the kingdom. 


Today I want you as a mom to be encouraged you are doing your best. The days can be long and tiring but the Lord refreshes the soul. (Psalm23:3) Jesus will equip you to serve not only your family but in your church body. 


“His divine power has granted to us all things that pertain to life and godliness, through the knowledge of him who called us to his own glory and excellence,”

1 Peter 1:3 



Thursday, February 25, 2021

Be a cheerleader for others





As a parent we want the best for our kids. We want them to succeed, reach for their dreams and be the encouragement they need. I want to root on the side line for them and be the loudest voice. What about you?  


Personally, I can remember my mom driving me to all my childhood events as a teen. She did it after work and on weekends. She would drive me to buy the necessary gear and clothes and I realize now all these years later how tired she must of been some days but she was my cheerleader. Did you have a your cheerleader rooting for you planting hope in you? 


My husband often talks about his football coaches being the voice of encouragement to him in high school. His parents were divorced and not always present for the games or practices growing up. He says there were many times the coaches would be that voice in his life to keep moving forward and to do his best. 


Our stories of growing up whether coming from broken homes, blended families or glass houses in ministry can all shape us toward God’s plan for our lives. He knows the outcome and we must learn to surrender ourselves to trust Him. It’s not easy learning this discipline but oh when we do friend God truly gives us peace in our decisions and our personal stories become the testimonies of God’s goodness in our lives. His story brings hope to others. 


God continues to use voices in our lives even as adults to speak encouragement and wisdom to us. I was blessed by this message my sweet husband wrote and I will tell you that it had me weeping.  


“The story isn’t always what we want it to be. 

It’s usually difficult. 

It’s usually uncomfortable. 

It usually forces you to trust God. 

It always produces Godly character. 

It puts your focus on Him instead of you.”


Lots of biblical stories are your story. God makes great men out of all those stories and used them to change the world.”


What is God doing through you? 

What is your story going to be? 

How do you honor God through this? 


Saturday, September 12, 2020

Waging War Against the Enemy


 

For although we walk in the flesh, we don’t wage war in fleshly way, since the weapons of our warfare are not fleshly but are powerful through God for the demolition of strongholds. 

1 Corinthians 10:3-4


I feel like we can see and feel the spiritual war going on around us more than ever. Can you see it too?  


It’s always been there and even in my life I feel it.  Spiritual dryness has crept in since March and I have struggled to keep doing what God wants of me.  I have questioned why are bad things happening around us and found looking for the goodness of God amongst all the bad we can easily see helps my attitude and helps me to lift my eyes upward instead of down and inward. 


Strongholds of sin and spiritual dryness can be demolished by picking up the armor of God. (See Ephesians 6)  It is this discipline of going to God even when we don’t feel like it and waging war against the enemy who wants to keep us away from seeing the good.  God will reward you and you will see the faithfulness of God around you as we in His strength seek Him. 


His Word is living and active and it will fill us up like fuel and soften our hearts toward Him and others. Praying will give us power and hope that only comes from Christ!  


Pray: 

Lord, arm me with your words today that I will hear them louder than the enemy. 

Forgive me where I have been lazy in seeking you for help when I don’t feel like it.  It is in my weakness you are magnified. You are my strength and I have hope because of you Lord💜 amen


Blessings 

tracy 

Wednesday, February 19, 2020

Redeemed be His Grace



What this words means to me...

𝘙𝘦𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘥 brings to mind the life I lead before Christ was empty. I was self seeking and lost. I struggled with the bondage of guilt and shame.  It honestly crippled me from most things.  ⁣
I heard this quote that resonated with me about sin and I am paraphrasing because I couldn’t find it again to share with you. ⁣

“𝘖𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘪𝘯 𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘮𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘦 𝘥𝘰𝘯’𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘦𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘎𝘰𝘥.”  𝘛𝘪𝘮 𝘒𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘳 ⁣

Is that why I confessed my sins but never left the shame and guilt behind?  I think so. It took me years to leave it all at the feet of Jesus.  Trusting God is daily dying to self and a surrender.  My natural bent is to take control but God has walked beside me and shown me that I have no control. It is all Him in my life redeeming it and holding me together and my family together by His grace. ⁣
Satan like a thief is still trying to destroy what God is doing in our life But Jesus is greater!  ⁣
When I pray now I believe God. I know that He has taken all of my sins yesterday and everyday and is continuing to sanctify me for His kingdom.   ⁣
This scripture from Corinthians is a reminder that when we repent and rid our heart of pride we will be free and saved!  Don’t let pride or surrender keep you separated from Gods goodness. ⁣

“𝘍𝘰𝘳 𝘨𝘰𝘥𝘭𝘺 𝘨𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘧 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘥𝘶𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘢 𝘳𝘦𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘢𝘭𝘷𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘳𝘦𝘨𝘳𝘦𝘵, 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘴 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥𝘭𝘺 𝘨𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘧 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘥𝘶𝘤𝘦𝘴 𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘩.”⁣
𝟸 𝘊𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘢𝘯𝘴 𝟽:𝟷𝟶 ⁣

Bless you friends! ⁣
~tracy  ⁣

Monday, February 17, 2020

Ready to Start a New Bible Study?







Hello friends!

 I have missed discussing a book of the Bible with you. It has been awhile. So lets start this year by walking through the book of Psalms together. I have the Breathe study from Well Women Co and its a lovely study. It walks through Psalms and I thought this time of Lent leading us into Easter would be a perfect time to do this/  
All 150 chapters of Psalms are praise and prayers to God and points us to Him.  
I think most of us women can relate to the emotional side of Psalms too. As we read and pray through this book, let us write out our feelings and any thing we may be going through. I believe God has something good for each of us this month as we read together. 

You may be wondering, how do I start? 

 Here are the details to join us on the Facebook page  and the start date is March 1st

This study will take place in a private facebook group HERE, Knit the Gospel into your Heart
(Please answer the questions when prompted because this will let me know you want to be added.)

If this is your first time to dig deep into studying a book of the Bible. Then let me share alittle how I like to study.  It is easy to feel stuck when reading scripture but when you have a few questions to ask and answer it leads to more questions right. Then before you know it you have learned so much more about the context.  

Here is a Link the printable for some guidance into inductive bible study method that has helped me!

I am excited to start this study with you friend. I hope you are too! 

See you in the group

Tracy







Sunday, February 16, 2020

God the Master Gardener

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The Lord God planted a garden in Eden, in the east and there He placed the man He had formed.  Genesis 2:8 ESV 


This verse spoke volumes to me as I have been gardening for about a year now.  The garden is planted and then the gardener nurtures and tends the soil for growth.  

God is the master gardener. He planted those first seeds for growth.  We were planted to grow into His image bearers. The seed is planted in us and if we seek the Living water, Jesus Christ, we will grow in spiritual maturity in Christ.  
I realize we all are in different paths of our faith walk and for a very long time I was seeking bad soil and running away from the light.  Maybe you are too? Maybe you are wondering how to grow? 

Let me share today that God the Father who created the world in 6 days is the God who desires for us to still walk with Him.  So no matter the place of maturity you are in just come to Him.  He isn’t disappointed in you. 

Growing means seeking God daily in relationship. How? 
Read His words. They are the only truth in life. 
Pray for guidance and let His Spirit lead you. 
Wait.  Wait for the sprouts of fruit to fill your heart like the joy knowing God loves you no matter what, peace knowing even when you don’t understand God is with you and is all knowing and the love that doesn’t leave you or condemn you.  
Our lives were made for growth and to share it with those around you.  

Do you see the Gardener in your life planting seeds?    He wants to tend to you and nurture you too.  

Have a blessed day friends😘 


-Tracy 

Wednesday, January 29, 2020

Be Christ’s Ambassador


We are therefore 𝐂𝐡𝐫𝐢𝐬𝐭’𝐬 𝐚𝐦𝐛𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐚𝐝𝐨𝐫𝐬, as though God ⁣
were making His appeal through us. ⁣
𝟸 𝘊𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘢𝘯𝘴 𝟻:𝟸𝟶 ⁣
Do you think of yourself as an ambassador for Christ?  Paul tells us we are in 2 Corinthians 5 that those that are in Christ we are ambassadors.  When we die to ourselves and are living in Christ we are reconciled, made right, with God.  ⁣
I never thought of myself as a representative for along time in my life. I thought the preachers and well known teachers were really more along that title.  It wasn’t until God showed me how much influence we have when we speak of Him and let Him work through us.  ⁣
I started to teach children and youth when I was in my twenties and they longed for a listening ear and a friend.  It was this eye opening blessing of awe. God taught me along the way that you just need to be available to share His Word.  I wasn’t the best teacher but I tried to be there when the kids needed me.  Isn’t that the memories that last from your childhood? Mine were teachers that said, hey I can pick you up for church.  Need a ride home today?  ⁣
Ambassadors are representatives. Christ followers represent Jesus Christ.  Don’t let fear or any lack keep you down today!  Our confidence to be ambassadors is from the Lord. (𝘗𝘳𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘣𝘴 𝟹:𝟸𝟼) I am keeping it on my hand to remind me today.   ⁣
By the way, my lunch time this week has been my devotion time. 😊 #keepingitreal⁣

Where is the weirdest place you have done your devotions at?

Thursday, January 23, 2020

Jesus is Enough!





I have asked God what should I do?

Just like the men asking Jesus in Luke 3, “what should we do?”
This year already it’s ran through my mind but rather I want to ask how am I living for you God?

Jesus answers by telling us to give generously, love fiercely and bear fruits in repentance!
It’s with a repentant humble heart Jesus is glorified. There is no magic answer to what this life looks like or  your goals except I know that He wants our life and actions to magnify His name!
Amen💗


Bless you today friend-
Tracy

Friday, November 8, 2019

What is Spiritual Discipline?



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What comes to mind when you think about spiritual discipline? 


Do you think of a set rules or things that maybe you don’t think know how to do? Or maybe you don’t even know what spiritual discipline is?  I will share as a young believer I didn’t either. We use these words as we grow in our faith and then we forget that other believers may not know what we are talking about.  
When we became a believer in Jesus Christ, He expected us to continue the road of faith learning more about Him in His Word and through prayer. 
This was something I did for awhile as a young believer then fell off quickly into the mind set of I attend church, I listen to the pastor, and prayer happens there and that’s it.  I never took it farther or read the Bible for myself to dig into it deeper and know what it says for myself instead of what someone else was telling me it says but to grow spiritually we must practice discipline kinda like an athlete training. We can’t grow in our faith or more in love with Jesus if our hearts are only focused on our work places, sports activities any idol that we hold more dear than God. We need to practice the spiritual disciplines such as thankfulness to our Heavenly Father, Meditating on God’s Word, Praying and Fasting(this will look differently for everyone and fasting doesn’t happen as often.)  


As I am ending this weeks #makeyourhomeahaven bible reading Daniel chapter 6 was a good one. Daniel was an extraordinary spirit, trustworthy and without fault. Wow! Daniels character sounds perfect.  I can’t help but want to be called an extraordinary spirit☺️ Don’t you? Daniel’s trust in God through men’s jealousy and then imprisoned in a den of lions😳 well in this chapter it shows us how Daniel did three of the spiritual disciplines. He walked by faith and knew God would rescue and deliver him. How? He was strengthened through prayer and his petitions were heard. It is the same for us. Lord, let us be changed daily and have trust like Daniel. God through our trials and weaknesses will be glorified. I am so thankful there is no lion in my life bigger than my God🙌🏻   

Have a great weekend friends! 

Tracy

Wednesday, October 23, 2019

Only Jesus

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Only through J E S U S 

can we be changed, 
loved limitlessly, 
be enduringly strong, 
forgiven, 
sanctified, 
and always delivered. 

God the Father sent his son Jesus to suffer for us and redeem us through His resurrection on the cross.  If I am a disciple, I am a reflection of Christ for those here in this life.  This is my time to step up! Jesus is all sufficient and qualifies me to share the gospel.  I have said it before and I will keep #preachingtomyself  to be “salt and light.” Season my community with God’s grace and through His Words share power and light up the darkness.  Beloved child of God there is nothing that disqualifies you other than listening to the enemy.  


I love this latest order in the shop that went out this week!  It inspired me who Jesus is and how that impacts me as a believer 🧡
What about you?   Have you felt disqualified from sharing who Christ is? 


Let’s me encourage you today that your story matters! 

Blessings- 
Tracy 





Tuesday, October 22, 2019

God’s Promise for the Anxious Heart






Hello there friends! 


Today I surrender to God, my anxious heart.  I use to struggle more than I do now with anxiety.  

Spiritual growth comes from the Holy Spirit leading us and the discipline of following the Word of God. Over many years, I have learned to surrender those fears, doubts and questions to God daily.  It’s not easy but I don’t want to fall down that pit of lies the enemy tries to feed my mind. 
Don’t get me wrong, I still struggle but now I have a action plan to help me when I do struggle

Pray, confess our sins then declare and claim God’s promises like Paul describes in 2 Corinthians chapter 1. 
 Here are just a few things I read and noted. 

What afflictions or sufferings are you dealing with today? 

Think on these things...

•God is our comfort 

•God is our hope 

 •God is our deliverer

 •God supplies abundantly 

Go check out 2 Corinthians Ch 1 today and see what God teaches you. 



Blessings - 

tracy 


Tuesday, September 24, 2019

September Positivity Scripture Challenge Day 16



Today is Day 16 of the Positivity Scripture Challenge 

“Whoever speaks the truth declares what is right, but a false witness speaks deceit.”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭12:17‬ ‭CSB‬‬

Speaking has always made me nervous.  I think it makes a lot of us nervous but is there anyone who doesn’t get nervous about public speaking? 

I use to never want to be the one who spoke up.  I was saved at a 13 but was never a confident girl. So speaking about God’s Word or my faith was something I wanted to do but like some of us we hide it in a compartment in our lives and don’t speak up much about it.  I mean when we aren’t confident in an area we usually aren’t the first ones to jump up to speak. 
As the years have passed and with the Holy Spirits guidance in my life, wisdom from the Word of God has filled me with Christ confidence to speak about God’s love for me and how He changes us.  
For years I lived in bondage to shame of my past sins, I knew I was forgiven but still couldn’t get beyond the lies of shame and guilt.  I wasn’t good enough to do the job God has given me.  I wasn’t equipped. I was a terrible person for the things in my past.   These are the lies I would replay in my mind.  
The lies I heard kept me quiet. I wanted to be hidden and it seen.  When I went through a time of prayer for one my children was when I realized God had a purpose for me that I wasn’t fulfilling. I saw God work in my life because I was praying for my child. I was praying for change in him but Jesus changed me! 
I believe God is working in our lives everyday and speaking Truth and believing God changes everything.  
So today I am a woman who wants you to know we can have the confidence to speak up for Christ when we are grounded in the Word. Dig deep into the Word and daily you will grow wisdom and be watered by the living water, Jesus Christ. 


One thing that I know is that God calls us to a purpose. It is as a Christ follower to share about His great love, forgiveness and the salvation we have through Jesus Christ. 

Blessings friends! 
Tracy 









Blessings -
Tracy 



Tuesday, September 10, 2019

September Positivity Challenge Day 7





Hello friends! 

Today is day 7 of September Positivity Scripture Challenge 

“And my God will supply all your needs according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.”
‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4:19‬ ‭CSB‬‬

There are needs and wants and boy do we as a people want things.  Everyday brings a new set of wants.  
God has promised us to supply our needs.    The needs in our life is far less than we think they are.  God gives us so much and yet we still may not think it’s enough. 

I know that God has given me breath when I see others who breathed their last suddenly. I know that God has given my mind rest, peace and a joy in Him through circumstances out of my control.  I know God gives me an everlasting hope and a future home with Him one day.  

Can you think of things in your life that God has supplied for you or your family? 


Share with me and let’s have a conversation today! 

Tag me on social! #knitthegospelintoyourheart

Blessings -
tracy


Sunday, September 8, 2019

Keep our eyes on Jesus!



I am praying for discernment. 


I really want a burning bush encounter from God. .


Can’t Jesus just spell it out clearly for me? .


As much as I wish my doubts and fears wouldn’t bother me, they creep in and I start focusing on them instead of Jesus’s Words. “Have courage. It is I, don’t be afraid.” (Matthew 14:27-29) 


When we focus on how strong the fears are instead of the strength of Jesus, we will sink.  Jesus wants us to keep our eyes focused on Him!  It’s always a beautiful picture of God’s strong arms reaching out for us when we do fall.  Jesus gives us wisdom to make choices. Will we stay comfortable or will we get uncomfortable to serve Him? .


WALK by FAITH not by sight! 
~2 Corinthians 5:7




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Saturday, September 7, 2019

Weekend Meditations


Hello friends!

Knitting and meditating this weekend. I am working on one of my many projects. This one in particular is a stash busting blanket. I wanted to use up some yarn I have had for awhile and I am holding 3 strands together.  It will be a longer project but I will share it finished one day soon! Maybe. LOL!

A renewed mind really does change everything. It changes impossibility into possibility!
God’s Word tells us eyes on Jesus... His Word will guide us into the mind of Christ.  Where marriages stay together when sin rips a wound wide open.  Where your children are wayward but you have  the power of prayer to help them.  Where your finances are struggling but scarcity is turned into abundance.
But Jesus!
Renew your mind; set your mind on heavenly things. Christ restores, heals, saves, breaks strongholds, forgives and most all loves.
Amen🙌🏻💙

Share what your doing fun this weekend 😍knitting or reading!

Tag me #knitthegospelintoyourheart  share on social what your meditating on!

Have a great weekend!

Blessings -
tracy

Tuesday, September 3, 2019

September Positivity Scripture Challenge Day 2


Hello Friends!

This is day 2 of the September Scripture Challenge


Today’s positive verse: 

“The heart of the righteous ponders how to answer, But the mouth of the wicked pours out evil things.”
Proverbs 15:28 NASB


I have to remember this because my mouth sometimes wants to speak before I really have all the information.  

I have spoken harshly without thinking things through and it is sad that I have let that happen. God doesn’t want us to beat ourselves up but for us to be in tune to Him. Listening and being slow to speak. 

Let us speak in love not in our own authority but in God’s. 


What does He say about this before I start blurting out comments.

Ouch! Proverbs is full of wisdom for our daily walk.  Share your comments below and let me know how God’s Word is changing you.


Blessings -
Tracy

Friday, January 11, 2019

Is my behavior reflecting my beliefs?



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Hello there friends! 


If my behavior doesn’t reflect my beliefs, How much value do I hold in them? I read this in The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People  by Stephen Covey, "We are shaped by what we love."

My status was that I love Jesus and He saved me but my behavior did not always reflect my belief in God. In a God who saved me, who has forgiven me of my sins and lavishly loves me.
My actions were a reflection of what I was still believing about myself not of what God says about me. 
I had walked for years in shame and guilt of my past that in my own strength I tried to forgive myself of.  I had repented to God but why didn't I immediately act like it?

Shame is a painful feeling of humiliation. I felt others would reject me if they got close and knew me.  
I was locked in chains because I wasn’t living out what I claimed to believe about God. I had repented years ago and God had forgiven me from my past sins. I was also living with a lot of fear in several areas of my life. I had some legalistic thinking going on that kept me following man made rules and never finding God's grace and truly nurturing an intimate relationship with God. So I could lead my heart from listening to feelings toward Gods Truth. I had not thought at this time reading my Bible was that important but that’s further from the truth.
How else are we to know that the "feelings" and our hearts we listen to can lead us astray.

Genesis 6:5 says," The Lord saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and that every intention of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually."

My relationship with Jesus went from a “Jesus is my God and saved me"  to  “Jesus is my everything."
My thoughts changed because I was replacing those lies with biblical Truths. I stopped listening to the world. The enemy wants us as believers to be inactive and to listen to him  more than God's Word.  I had not taken the discipline of reading my Bible and hiding God’s Word in my heart seriously but when I did my actions started changing once I started taking God at His Word. Believing Him. Trusting Him. Praying to Him. Loving Him more than anything else. I learned the hard way like most of us I am sure but I am grateful God never gives up on us.  
Soon my actions started to follow my beliefs. I began the discipline of scripture reading and studying God’s Word for myself. Then I realized, if I believed God then His scripture commands me to be a doer of the Word not just a hearer.
"But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves." James 1:22

God wants me to claim His promises and proclaim the Gospel to others and bear fruits of our faith. So others will see that Jesus heals the broken sinner, takes our shame, and gives us right thinking.  God never leaves with shame or guilt and no rules will ever make us good enough. God’s grace and power in our lives is real when we pray fervently.
Friend, I pray you find that change of heart by changing your relationship status with Jesus and listening to His Word more than anything else.  Our hearts are continually thirsty and Jesus is the living water to fill it.

2 Corinthians 12:9  “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me."


I pray this encourages you today my friend!  You can always leave me a comment because I love hearing your stories walking with the Lord.

knit the Gospel into your heart❤
trAcy