When I look back at my life, I can see that receiving Gods salvation was the easy decision when I was 13 years old. I can see now what I was missing in my life after I accepted Christ as my Savior was a understanding of surrendering to His Spirit inside me. I never understood this life was meant to be walked out in His Spirit not me walking without thought of Him helping me.
I was taught growing up to be in control of my life. You can do whatever you want but work hard for it. So it was so hard for me to rely totally on Jesus. I believed He had my eternity covered BUT the here and now I wasn’t completely surrendered. I didn’t believe it because my knowledge wasn’t in the Word of God. It was in what the enemy knew I would cling to for a very long time, control. I would continue to believe in what I could control around me or if I worked harder everything would work out.
It was such a turning point for me when I totally surrendered to God. I broke down and felt the weakest I have ever felt. This is a terrible feeling for someone who likes control. In my prayers I heard God whispering come to me, “I have always been here.” “Give it all to me.”
When I surrendered to Him and finally received His gifts to me. I listened to the Spirit, I couldn’t get enough of God, His Word and His transforming power. I saw the strongholds fall in my life and finally understood His grace.
It’s been a daily surrender and I hope you will join me!
-tracy
