Days of Doubt

 

Some days I have doubts. 

I doubt God can see my dreams and desires to fruition. 

I am not sure I should doubt. I don’t want to be double minded like James tells us not to be. 

I see there is so much goodness and beauty yet life can be hard, sad, and hurt sometimes. The world wants us to question God. 

Then I doubt but really it’s me I doubt the ability of not God. I know He can do immeasurable things. I have seen others have their dreams fulfilled and God has answered my prayers so many times. Yet there are days I hesitate to believe it for myself. I let doubt hold me back.  Though it isn’t me in whom I should trust for anything. 

It is God. To fear God. 

sigh.

What is wrong with me? Should we ever doubt? I am not sure. There are days I believe God then the world screams in my ear, “it’s not for you. It will be too hard. It will cost too much.” 

What is the cost? My soul, my time, my money? 

I let fear paralyze me. I do nothing. I let my big emotions take me captive. 

It is in these times I go to The Word for answers. 

 Believing God is surrendering my doubts, the fear and the what if’s over into his arms. Freeing me of myself. All my resources are His. One big resource is prayer! 

My doubt brings me to prayer. Where I want to talk to God through my doubts, bringing me and my daily life to faithful surrender. He is faithful and never changes. So if He can do immeasurably more than I think I want to exchange my doubts with belief in Him for everything! 

Will I be faithful? 

Will I keep being obedient to keep doing what He calls me to do even in the beautiful days and in the hard days ahead? 

Will I believe my dreams are valid and He will work them out one day through my faithful obedience. 

I don’t want to doubt God can do anything even beyond what I can imagine for my life. 

What about you? 

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